Baby Update

Things have been so busy here. This week we had something to do every night. After Hayden's party I didn't feel good. I figured that I just over did it. I went to sleep at 7 and sleep the whole night. (I think David was worried because he kept checking on me). I was feeling lighted headed and dizzy, like I was going to faint. I couldn't seem to catch my breath. So I went to see the Dr. on Monday. Well, needless to say I am doing too much and not taking care of myself. David tends to say just stop and sit!! So that is what I am trying to do. It is so hard for me because I feel like I HAVE to be doing something all the time. So I have been really good about going to bed early and stop running around so much when I get home. I can tell a big difference I don't feel as tired and so busy! Imagine that!! I hate to eat! I can't believe I am saying those words. I can't stand the way food smells. I have been eating a lot of fruits and veggies, milk, bland cereal like cheerios, rice, and bread. I will be 12 weeks along tomorrow. I am so exited because tomorrow I am taking my first trimester test and the gender test. So hopefully late this week or early next week we will know the sex of our baby!! I am glad I am taking the first trimester test because it screens for different genetic disorders (I am taking a class at SFA now and we are learning all about different genetic syndromes in class because a lot of them can cause problems with vision. So the class has me a little paranoid)!! Other then being sick all the time and smells of stuff I think it is going fine. I will be excited when the first trimester is over with. I didn't remember it being so BAD.

Papa Dale

Hayden thinks it is really funny to copy people. If I am calling David, he copies the same thing I just said. If I ask David to do something and I tell him again...he says did you hear me? Are you listening? (Wonder where he hears that from)?!?! He really likes for me to say silly stuff. He is so cute to watch when he acts like someone else. I personally like this one.



I not really sure if he does this or was just exaggerating for Hayden but Hayden got it!

Shopping for a baby

David always tries to pull a fast one on Hayden but it never seems to work. Hayden is too smart for his own good. The other day we were watching the news and the baby that was missing in St. Louis came on so me and David started talking about it. A few days later the story came on again. Hayden saw her picture and was like there is the baby that was missing, she isn't anymore (you will see it on the video below). Hayden likes to look at maps and find where people live. So David asked him "Are you ready to go pick the baby up at the store"? Hayden wasn't sure what to say...he knows you can't buy a baby from the store. Here is his response....

Birthday Boy

Today is Hayden's birthday. It w as a very emotional day. I didn't sleep well last night and was up by 4...so I laid and bed and thought about the day ahead of me. I wanted to wake him up on his fourth birthday so I think that is why I was awake so early. I didn't want to miss his reaction. David and I work him up about 5:50. I really wished I would have captured that moment on video. He was truly precious. I said Hayden it's morning and he sat up really fast and said so happy, IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!! David said, so how old are you he held up 4 fingers....like he was waiting for this moment. We then talked about all the things we had planned for the day. One thing that David and I do really well is making sure Hayden has a special day that is ALL about him. When we were making breakfast Hayden was looking over himself and said Mom I didn't get bigger. (I guess he thought since he is four he should be taller)? He had a huge smile on his face. So he then proceed to wake Holly up and tell her the exciting news...(Hayden's conversation to Holly)

I am four Holly...Can't you tell? I am so excited that I am four...Can you believe it? October 18th is finally here!! (This leads me into thinking that Hayden will enjoy being a big brother)

Hayden and I made cupcakes to take to his friends at school. When we were making them Hayden had it all planned out about who was getting what cupcake. Typically Hayden.

He had a great day at school and his teachers and the staff made a big deal about him turning four. Which made him happy!

If his birthday doesn't fall on the day of his party. We let him pick where we wants to go eat dinner and celebrate....not surprising that he picked Chuck E. Cheese!! We had a blast. I think David and I enjoyed playing games more then Hayden did. He was also so excited that he got a birthday sticker.

It is so weird how David and I view the past four years. David thinks that they have dragged on while I feel like the were gone in a blink. It is hard for me to come to terms with all that he has accomplished in four years...Sitting, walking, talking, developing his personality, able to carrying on a conversation...so much! I think this past year he has grown so much because he is able to verbalize it all. He can read words, write his first name and tell you the letters in his last name. Knows about 10 muscles in the body. He can tell you anything about rats, sharks, and dinosaurs. He can count to 30 and to 20 in Spanish. He likes to dance and do flips to an ACDC song. Loves to listen to stories and build race car tracks. He has a kind heart and always eager to help. He want to please you.

Happy Birthday Hayden...You have truly taught me so much and I am so grateful for your hugs and kisses. You are going to a great big brother.

Happiness

Happiness what defines it? As I went through the last week I started to have doubts and fears. Fears about the future and fears about Hayden. The week went by in a flash and I felt like I didn't get anything done or spend quality time with Hayden. As I picture our future with the baby I often think about Hayden. Am I trying to fulfill my own wants and happiness without thinking about him. Will having another child cause a bond that we have to be broken? Will he think I love him less? Will he not have a connection with his sibling? I keep telling myself that Hayden will bounce back fine and that yes, it might effect him when the baby is first born because it will need constant care. I am pretty much convince that my hormones has me thinking like this. I know the future is going to be difficult but so worth it. I know that we will make memories to last a life time. As Hayden and I made cupcakes to celebrate his birthday at school it I realized that it would be the last time Hayden will have a birthday as an only child. Hayden is so excited about turning four which makes me happy. He loves the fact that he will be older. We are taking Hayden to Chuck E. Cheese tomorrow. I am planning on posting when we get back. Tomorrow will be so bittersweet. So I think I am going to end with know that my happiness is what you make of moments and time. I am truly happy with all the changes that will occur in the next year or so and can't wait to experience them.

Sickness

Oh the joys of morning sickness. I feel terrible ALL THE TIME!! I am constantly getting nauseous. I don't throw up often but my stomach is constantly turning. I also can't take the smell of things...even things I love like bath and body works spray or Hayden's baby soap. The doctor prescribed me some medicine it really helps but when I take it I want to sleep for hours so I rarely take it. Everyone says small meals and eat throughout the day....yeah not working, eating food with ginger, saltine crackers.....yup did it all...no relief. Some days are worse they others. I am trying to piece my day to see if it is something I do at home or work that matters but so far I can't tell. I am hoping that after 12 weeks I will feel better. I did with Hayden. I also tell myself it is so worth being sick...but the positive thinking doesn't help. I just want to feel like my old self. If you know me I am constantly moving and can't sit still that isn't the way it is now! I just want to sit and not to move...not really practical! So all this leads me to thinking that it MIGHT be a girl. I know you shouldn't compare pregnancies but this is totally different from Hayden so not sure what it means. We will wait and see.

Hayden and David are also sick. It sees like allergies season is coming early this year. I took Hayden to the doctor and she said it was severe allergies so we are changing his allergy medicine so I am thinking that will help. He has been so good with being sick. He isn't crabby and doesn't whine. He just goes with the flow. So today I stayed home to make sure he would be a 100% tomorrow.

Bunk Beds

Since all of the exciting stuff with the baby I totally forgot to record one of Hayden's exciting moments. Hayden didn't start sleeping with us when he was little. He did really good in his crib for the first year or so. When David started working offshore and Hayden was sick a lot he was up all the time so I let him sleep in our bed. At first, it was when he was sick then it became all the time. He stayed there until about a month ago. We were searching for a bunk bed made out of solid wood. We didn't find any so David said he would build one. When David was out of school for a couple of days he started. He began looking for a bunk bed to build. Ironically he stumbled on a bunk bed made of wood at Ikea. So he picked it up and started putting it together. When Hayden and I got home he was just about finished. I wished I would of captured Hayden't face when he entered his room. It was priceless. He was so excited. He has done such a great job of transitioning. He really loves it. He sleeps on the top and Holly sleeps on the bottom. Perfect!!

Hayden and the baby

We told Hayden the day we found out. He never really got the concept. A baby and where does it come from and how does it get there. I think that was too much for his 3 year old brain to wrap around. David told him that the baby is in my tummy and that the doctor cuts it out. (Okay kinda right but still wasn't understanding). I am hoping that when my stomach get bigger, he will get it. I think he will really understand when he can feel the baby move and kick. He will rub my belly and tell me he is taking care of it. He is very excited about this. He likes to look at baby stuff and tells me we need _______ for the baby. He really has a soft spot. Lately it has been if I can't do (something on his own...cut his pancakes, open the door, put his shoes on...)then I am not a big brother. I tried explaining just because you have the word BIG doesn't mean that it has to be by yourself. Hayden wants a baby brother...ONLY a baby brother. David and I explained that you can't pick what kind of baby you want you just get it. So then he said okay...Daddy and I can have a boy baby and mommy you can have a girl baby. We said No...you just get one. So I think now he wants any baby. He really has taking this in stride. He is so ready for the baby to come so he can help. I am hoping that it will stay that way.

Our Peanut

So today we went back to the doctor for my 8 week check up. It is truly amazing how big of a difference a few weeks make. Last time she did any ultrasound nothing was there. Today so different. We saw a BABY.



This is a profile view (it came out really blurry...I think it is the scanner). You can see a head and some what of a baby shape. What I enjoyed most about this was Hayden reaction. As soon as she said hey look it is a baby, Hayden said really loud I am SOOO EXCITED! and then clapped his hands and had a big smile on his face. How can you not love that? It is kind of difficult to take Hayden to the doctor with us because he asks a lot of questions. It is nice to have David come to help with Hayden when they are asking me stuff. So David asked when we could find out the sex of the baby. She said around 20 weeks...which I think is the week of Christmas. She then said that there is a blood test that they look at the gene make up and that take place around 10-13 weeks. I am wanting to do that, but insurance doesn't cover it (it is around 100-150 bucks). So we will see....I am trying to talk David into it...no luck so far. (There is a new game coming out on the Xbox that he wants and I told him when we find out the sex of the baby then you get your game....He didn't like that deal)!! We got an official due date which is May 14, but we are planning for a schedule C-section which would be the week of the 7th..when it gets closer we will know for sure when the baby will be born. We also heard the heartbeat which was so nice and reassuring to hear. What a great way to start a week!!

Planning

If you know me I plan things out to the T. I make lists and check them twice and make sure everything is checked off and done. David is quite the opposite. He lives for things on the fly, he can change his mind at any moment with no regrets. He kinda balances me out. I think I started to have baby fever after Hayden turned 1. At that time we were living in Louisiana and around November and December his work had a hiring freeze. He had heard word that things were getting tough and at the time his company was the only one working off shore. He knew something was up. So the timing wasn't right then. When we came to Houston it wasn't going to work either. I was going to start my job teaching in a public school for the first time....that was stressful enough! When we cut Hayden's curls off I felt like my baby was gone. There wasn't anything left that was baby like. So we began to plan and some what compromise. We talked about when Hayden was a certain age we would have another baby. I said 3 and David said 5 so we meet in the middle 4. So when we started to plan we decided that we wanted a summer baby. I wanted to stay home a little longer then 6 weeks and I wanted Hayden home too. So we figured okay a late May or early June baby. We did a lot of planning and the biggest cost of having a baby was the delivery and daycare. So we played with the numbers and the different insurance plans my school offered. My insurance is terrible. I pay around 900 dollars a month for insurance (health, dental, and eye). Then on top of that we have to reach a 1,200 deductible before the insurance will cover anything (then after the $1,200 we pay 20% of services). So figured the baby will cost around 4,000 dollars. So we factored that into our flex card so we can get it pre-taxed. The daycare is going to be the biggest expense. Right now we pay around $625 a month for Hayden, a baby would cost us $825 a month. It is crazy to think that in August we will spend more money in daycare then we do for house payment and my car! Yeah, so we wanted to save money and keep the baby home for awhile. As I said before we didn't think we would get pregnant so quick. So I think for the most part everything has falling into place. I am hoping that I can work until I delivery because I don't think I can stay home and not do anything. I don't have college classes in the summer so that worked out too. I am thinking that the delivery date and finals will run close so I am probably going to have to see if I can take my finals early. I don't think that will be a problem so I am so excited to have things work out. Now the next thing is to wait....and wait patiently that is going to be harder.